“Spiritualized” The Ego of Spirituality

“Ego is the destroyer of the soul.”

Dysfunction Junction:

We all have personal agendas, conflicts, crises, egos, faults and strategies.  We all have afflictions and conditions which impair our perceptions, senses, instincts, thoughts and feelings.  This is the daily reality we all accept, adopt and navigate in our experiences.  Some of us nurture practices to keep ourselves balanced, conscious, present and transformed, while some of us front oblivion to deny, dismiss, deflect and project our inner challenges and deficiencies upon others.  This happens in all communities.  The ego transmits a dense, low-vibrational energy not only impacting the people engaging in deception, yet also the spiritual community with which they pray and relate. 

Observational Hazards:

For half of my life, I have participated in spiritual communities.  I learned and earned a degree of focus, consciousness, effort, energy, intention and prayer to manage my own ego, agendas, challenges, deficiencies, instincts, thoughts and feelings detrimental to my experience.  It is clear to all whom have chosen to walk a spiritual path, there is a necessity to practice observation, awareness, accountability, integrity and transformation.  For me, it is a commitment of holding a space for all to have their experience, and the choice to make a positive difference in the lives of all their relations.  Unfortunately for some, the “ego of spirituality” establishes a schism between perception and experience. 

Best of Intentions:

When our experience begins, we are mystified by the energy and power of spirituality.  As human beings, we are prone to heap our belief, hope, energy and lives onto the mystery.  It seems much easier to fully sacrifice ourselves upon the altar of blind faith, than delve into the rotten soil of our personal challenges and deficiencies which brought us to it.  As our awareness of our soul and the universe evolves, our ego grows in tandem.  Most of us decide to abandon observation of our ego, giving it as much power over us than whatever spiritual relation we believe we are cultivating.  We instinctively collapse the voice we interpret as spirit with our ego.  We listen more to this inner voice than the universe because it tells us what we “want” to hear, never what we “need” to hear. 

Identity of Importance:

When the ego takes root in our experience, a desire to be acknowledged and significant arises.  As we deepen our spirituality, inevitably we crave importance.  Our personal experiences often require the validation of others to exhibit them as being more meaningful and powerful.  This is “artificial power,” which negates whatever sincere effort and energy we are investing.  It is contrary to our evolution when we fall into virtual spirituality.  All the focus, intention, energy, adversity, challenge and pain our experience may bring, offered intentionally and obliviously to our ego in pursuit of false power and importance.  Therefore, our spirituality fails.  However, it is not the tradition we practice which falters.  It is our spiritual superiority which empowers our ego. 

“Vulnerability is the greatest strength we can express.”

Trail of Tears:

All of us have personal woundedness.  We have been hurt by circumstances and others, yet primarily by ourselves.  Our suffering is self-inflicted, whether we choose to believe, observe or claim it.  We conceal and covet our pain and insecurity because we believe our ego when it tells us it is weakness.  We repress our deficiencies in desperation and present a “brave face” to our community, while we break down with every spiritual step we take.  As we stumble down our path, our anger, anxiety, doubt and fear rise to be released from our experience.  When this occurs, we have three options.  1. We continue to deny and repress its existence.  2. We project it upon others as their responsibility, thus deflecting our own.  3. We choose to be with and manage our own issues and eventually resolve them. 

Self Alone:

Spirituality is not about “our” experience.  This is a selfish fantasy we devise to appease our ego and sustain our artificial power, ultimately limiting our conscious evolution.  The cornerstone of our commitment to the traditions we walk is our service to the people in our communities and beyond.  Occasionally, I have observed people step into spiritual experiences for the sole purpose of receiving something for themselves alone.  This has been and is heartbreaking for me to witness, all their potential for making a difference, wagered for control, ego and importance.  The most disturbing reality in this dynamic; most have little awareness of the impacts it has on them, and none it has on others.      

Power Play:

Many who step into a spiritual experience often have deficiencies or lack personal power.  When they see others who are developing and expressing their own, they too yearn to establish theirs.  Yet, their ego emphasizes their neglected anger, anxiety, fear, insecurity, pain and woundedness.  Out of their desire, desperation, entitlement and self-righteousness, they aim to steal power from others to fabricate their own.  They use other people’s reactions to their behavior to distort and manipulate experience and perception.  When they are exposed, they present themselves as victims of the circumstance they have caused, using their drama, trauma and tears as a weapon to divert the attention from themselves onto others to achieve their agenda.   

Divisive Intentions:

One of the primary expressions of “artificial power” in spiritual communities happens when the “spiritualized” attempt to divide and conquer.  They invent narratives about others, most often leaders, to distort and manipulate perception, compromising the image, role and trust leaders have earned with their communities.  Once the seeds of speculation are planted, the provocateurs enroll others in their orchestrated plots, gathering numbers and imposing their agendas.  They initiate division between members of the community to efficiently control information and outcomes.  Essentially, it is a hostile takeover predicated by their belief they are better than the people who are given roles of responsibility.   

Spiritualized”:

For years, I have attempted to identify the behaviors of people who use spirituality as a strategy to bolster their ego, execute their agenda and obtain power.  The term that best classifies this behavior is “spiritualized.”  By definition, “someone who perceives themselves to be spiritually superior to others, using ageism, experience, history and self-righteousness to prove and impose their spiritual status and worth.”  Being “spiritualized” is a social psychosis and metaphysical stigma running rampant throughout most if not all domains of spirituality.  Yet it is not only the actions, words or behaviors of “spiritualized” individuals, it is the malicious intent in the name of spirituality which invokes the greatest harm, influence and devastation.

For the Benefit of All:

Some may be offended when reading this article.  Some may believe what is written does not apply to them.  Whether my observations about the ego of spirituality empowers, inspires, enrages, irritates or simply does not move the needle of recognition is telling.  Whatever reaction we choose in response to these observations is a clarification of our willingness to acknowledge and accept we ALL have egos.  Like it or not, its influence DOES impact our spiritual experience and those of others.  Understanding this gives us all the opportunity to shift our focus and energy away from our ego and align with our soul.  If we are going to give all of ourselves for our spiritual experience, it needs to be for the benefit of all.   

Believer Beware:

Practicing tradition is a powerful experience.  It is a humbling opportunity often mistaken as an attainment of individual advancement.  When we charge into our spirituality with agenda, ego, entitlement and expectation, it will become destructive to us and others in ways we cannot begin to imagine.  However, when we step into our experience with consciousness, humility and prayer, it empowers our lives and those of others.  “Spiritualized” people do not like to be told what to do, and often tend to alter traditions, feign understanding or even make them up to suit their agenda.  After all my experiences, one insight I would share with those at the crossroads of their soul; be present to your ego and its influence, or you will never have a spiritual experience.                   

“Unity is the soul of community.”

An Ear to Hear

“The greatest expression of presence is listening.”

On Deaf Ears:

We listen primarily to articulate our response.  This is essential to acknowledge.  Our social conditioning does not inspire an awareness for quality relativity.  Our impatience and intolerance are reflective of the dysfunctional personas we conceal from others in our quest to present an image of sanity in a sociopathic society.  The expanding vortex of contemporary reality consumes our consciousness, creativity, evolution, imagination and sensibility, rendering us unable to empower and sustain our listening.  When we are not present to this, our ego takes advantage of our imbalanced being.  Ignorance is bliss, until we pay the price for our selective interpretation and self-righteousness with personal and social oblivion.

Reality-Colored Vision:

Our perspective is inundated with perceptual filters.  We see the world as it seems, rarely as it is.  Throughout the course of our life experiences, we adopt, adapt, embrace and express inherent personal and social, static lenses, hindering our enlightenment.  Over time, we enable our selective viewpoints, casting ourselves into a narrow awareness of experience.  Eventually, we impose our limited perceptions upon others to defend our self-induced coma of anxiety, fear, insecurity and prejudice.  These personal rackets award us the arrogance to claim artificial power and flex it whenever our fixed perspectives are challenged.  This compounds the illusions we weave, eventually becoming our reality.

Barely Audible:

Our relatedness is distorted and manipulated as much as our reality.  We cannot relate when our language is as lethargic as our listening.  The fullest potential of conscious listening is the equilibrium between our instincts, intellect, feelings and intuition.  However, social reality is rife with toxic impulses, thoughts and emotions.  These have become the avenues of our agendas, at the cost of our hearts and souls.  We are desensitized to how we sacrifice our experience, building our bank accounts, establishing our status and bolstering our egos.  Superficiality destroys the possibility of transforming our social conversations from individual greed to community need.  Every day we disempower ourselves deeper into denial.

The Fragility of Consciousness:

Our instinctual, intellectual and emotional reactivity overpowers our awareness.  We allow other people, social circumstances and environments to compromise our consciousness before it has the opportunity to evolve.  Whether the fate of our transcendence is accidental or intentional, it all begins with the quality of our listening.  If we were aware of the insight, transformation and wisdom available when we and those we speak with felt heard, we would chase after experiences to cultivate conscious listening.  The frailty of our listening reflects the fragility of our consciousness.  All we may become is sacrificed for all we may control.  As we abandon our awareness, we diminish our ability to hear and be heard.

“Listening is the currency of being.”

Acute Observation:

When we choose to see how communication and listening does or does not exist in contemporary society, we need only turn to the internet, radio and television.  Understanding 90% of what we observe in the media is corporate, political and religious editorial gives us insight into how we can choose to draw vital distinctions.  Personal truth will never be found in the annals of education, heredity, politics, religion and alternative, mainstream and social media.  No matter how true broadcasts may seem when pandered to our platform and position, they are dangerous transmissions resulting in historically catastrophic outcomes.  Keen observation is the primary practice in distinguishing distorted facts from intuitive vision.

Distant Avenues:

We are not related.  We believe we are.  Yet, vast distances exist between us through social concoctions of fear, insecurity, selective interpretation, and deficiencies in acceptance, authenticity, empathy, trust and understanding.  We consciously and obliviously sustain societal separation.  All of this is simply a facet of our personal isolation.  The deepest impact is the well being of our relationship with ourselves and ultimately our soul.  We have an active connection with our instinct and intellect, though our relatedness with our heart and intuition is abandoned by our conditioned addiction to sense reality.  When we are not related with others or even ourselves, we are not aligned with our soul and the universe.    

Heart Resonance:

As we listen with our egos, we miss so much of what exists for others, and what occurs for us in theirs.  We rarely, if ever, venture outside of our own experience of listening.  Our narcissistic tendencies narrow our frequency of being, much as our mind can diminish our perception.  Every conversation we have has potential for multidimensionality.  The gateway to universal relativity is acceptance, empathy, support and understanding.  In expressing this, we also benefit from the experience.  We all emanate an energetic signature.  When we maintain the equilibrium of our instinct, intellect, emotion and intuition, the resonance between us expands, expressing universality.

Universal Relativity:

Our being is multidimensional.  All which cannot be perceived by most is easily dismissed into non-existence.  Hence the oblivion we all inevitably adopt.  Understanding we are a soul with intuitive, emotional, intellectual and instinctual expressions helps us to embrace the necessity of our personal equilibrium.  Without it, we will never fulfill relativity with the universe, ourselves or others.  We may believe we have decent relations with our family and friends, yet beyond the social bubbles we tolerate, we do not experience ourselves.  Therefore, we do not relate with our soul and the universe.  Universal relativity transpires when we chose to express authentic listening as our primary intention with all our relations.

Between the Lines:

I am a musical artist in addition to an author of articles.  My creative process is an experiential, multidimensional environment, a sacred space the universe holds for me as a representative for all possibility in being my expression.  The moment I intend to bring universality into three-dimensional reality, the eternal and infinite energy of the universe is inevitably diminished from its ever-expansive nature to a singular, static medium.  Society’s perceptual tendency toward duality furthers the waning impression of creativity.  For me, it is not the musical notes or words I choose.  It is the universal energy inspiring them to empower their expression.         

Relations of Power:

There is a vital distinction to be made when listening.  For many, expressing it is an act of tolerance, “allowing” another to speak, all the while collecting notes to curry our response.  Authentic listening gives people with whom we relate the experience of being heard, empowering their relatedness with acknowledgment, appreciation and acceptance.  We may not agree with the viewpoints of others, though it does not mean we need to devalue, diminish and dismiss their voice when it is in contrast with ours.  Being heard is a power we can share with all.  When we give others our listening with the empowerment of being heard, we are extending equal courtesy to ourselves, thus becoming an expression of universal relativity. 

“Listening is offering others the experience of being heard.”